About Me

So my motivation is myself actually. I will post pics of hot girls with hot bods every once in awhile.

Let me give you a little background about myself. I was a fat kid. From the day I was born. I was always the bigger girl with bright red hair, chubby cheeks, and a bright smile. But I was constantly picked on and bullied. Funny thing is I wasn’t in high school though. Just elementary and middle school. In high school I had such a good group of friends that no one messed with me. And honestly I went to a good school where bulling wasn’t ever really an issue…well when I went there anyway. By the end of high school I was 170lbs! I was unhappy and unhealthy.

It wasn’t until I turned 20 that I decided to change my life. Sadly, I went about it all wrong. I went to the gym twice a day which is great right? Of course but my eating habits were hideous. First i drank the Hollywood Fasting drink or whatever. That stuff was so gross. But for 3 months all I ate was dry Special K cereal, cucumbers, and celery. That was it. I made up for some of the calories in the excess amount of alcohol I was drinking. And I was drinking a lot! Straight Evan Williams Whiskey mainly. Ugh just thinking about it makes me sick lol. At that time there was only Myspace. I slowly started to shy away from my friends. Deleted them from my myspace and became friends with only pro-ana people. My friends were pissed and hurt but I just didn’t understand at the time. It wasn’t until i was at a friends house, drinking and got caught in a very personal conversation with a friend and I had a nervous breakdown in front of EVERYONE! Oh god it was so mortifying but so satisfying at the same time. If it weren’t for that break down, I don’t know where I would be today.

This is when I got my act together. Kept going to the gym, but started eating right. But the main thing…I quit drinking! I went 4 years without a sip of alcohol. Not that it was a problem but it was holding me back from losing the weight I wanted to. In those 4 years my whole body transformed. I went down to 132lbs. I was 25 now and was taking care of myself and had a great boyfriend, great job and apartment and so on.

This is me at the end of 2010! Not perfect but felt great…yet I still called myself fat at the time. Ugh!!!

I’m the redhead with the sunglasses. Yea, looked good didn’t I?

Well everything changed in one month. i was laid off from my job due to budget cuts, my boyfriend and I broke up and I couldn’t afford my apartment anymore. IN ONE MONTH!!!

So I moved back home with my parents, and got a new job which helped me save money. But I wasn’t saving it for a new apartment. I somewhat went back to my old ways. Not with the eating though. My good friend just graduated college and was home now. Let’s call her wingwoman! Wingwoman and I went out to bars and clubs almost every night of the week. I was slamming down vodka and redbull and jager bombs. I did this for a year and a half….right up to the point that I moved to Texas. In that year in a half I gained 15 pounds!!!!! See my BeforeDuringAfter pics.

So when I moved to Texas I started dating Adam right away and made a grave mistake…I got pregnant. I was so scared. Scared cause I wasn’t financially ready. But I was going to keep the baby and we were going to try to our hardest at making this worse. I stopped drinking, and smoking cigs and ate really healthy for the both of us. One morning i woke to a shit ton of blood everywhere. Adam took me to the hospital and they confirmed that I was having a miscarriage. I was so devastated cause I felt like I did something wrong. This is when things got worse. My depression was in full force and I was eating nothing but junk to make myself feel better. I started drinking again and just eating and drowning my sorrows. It took my 3 months to get over it. This is when I started going to the gym and eating super healthy. The gym really helped with my depression and literally got me out of it.

I can finally say I’m happy. I have a good job, great boyfriend, good friends here and at home and I am losing the weight!

So as I said I am my only motivation. The pics from before my drinking downfall.

2010

As I said before I will post other pics. This is what I want to look like. I don’t have a time limit. I don’t believe in them.

^Love her!

^Not really fan but love her body!

I wonder if these woman know we use their photos. Hahaha